Where is my wife please?

Photo: The wonderful sight that greeted me this morning.

Wonderful how hospital staff keep in touch with you. It's a little disconcerting to arrive at the hospital room your wife has been in for over the past 2 months and see an empty bed. It's even more disconcerting to have the nurse in the room say..."Um...I think she went to get some test or something...I don't really know. Let me get her nurse."

Are you @#$%@%^ kidding me??

Turns out she was taken down to get the port put in for dialysis. But I mean, why inform anyone that it is occurring? It obviously just confuses people when you tell them your plans. Maybe it's a secret surgical facility courtesy of Halliburton and for national security reasons I can't know where she is.

ARGH.

And yes, this little bed and the surrounding area is where she has spent the past 11 weeks. Looks fun doesn't it? I try to liven it up with stuffed animals and the like but what it really needs is a decorator...preferably one who didn't graduate from the Soviet School of Cold War Design and Interrogation.

J update

Photo: One of J's doctors informs me of her status.

As you may have noticed I've started to call her 'J'...there's no reason to make it too easy to find stuff about her if we don't want you to.

Well apparently I was wrong about waiting 2 weeks before starting dialysis because I was informed this morning that J is having a port put in today and will start dialysis as soon as possible. I just love having such detailed and timely information. All the information I have so far is that she will probably undergo dialysis at least 3 times a week, but of course it's too early to tell.

I am hoping that the dialysis will help her to overcome the nausea and chronic pain. From what I've read it should help her feel better, and will hopefully allow her body to recover somewhat. At the very least, it should reduce the discomfort of the excess water weight that she has gained over the past few weeks, which is driving her crazy. There is no information on how long she will be on, but I am guessing that she may be on dialysis until she is up for the kidney/pancreas transplant surgery.

J's emotional state could be better of course, and I'm sure this news doesn't help her to feel any better. I'm trying to spin it as positive as possible, and I do think it will help her more than hurt at this stage. I think the worst for her is the feeling that Kaiser doesn't seem to know what the hell it's doing with her, and she's much to smart to be fooled by them. I don't know that she is wrong in that belief either which keeps me up nights.

In other news I bought a nice used laptop on Ebay for J, and should get it within a week. I got it for her in the hopes that she could use it to write, play games, watch DVDs...generally have more control over her daily activities than just TV and...pain. It has WiFi built in but have received conflicting reports on whether or not it is available in the hospital, so don't send those emails to her just yet.

Definition and details of dialysis here for those who may want more information.

Latest "J" news

The photo sums up my feelings of the modern medical community.

J's condition at the moment can only be described as purgatory. We will be 'celebrating' her 11th week in the hospital on Saturday.

After detoxing her almost completely off of opiates, Kaiser has decided to put her back on for pain treatment. She was doing well until about a week ago when the pain was just unbearable for her. Her nausea seems to come and go with less severity, though she is nauseous most of the day.

There has been a new medication added, one which will hopefully help her to retain more protein from the IV nutrition that she has been on for the past few weeks. The concern is that her protein levels are still at starvation levels even though she has been on constant IV nutrition. This is apparently due to reduced kidney function...the kidneys are 'leaking' the protein back into her body and not utilizing it. It is hoped that this will help her to feel better, as her protein levels rise so will her body's ability to function properly (so we're told). If this doesn't improve her condition in the next couple of weeks there is talk of starting dialysis.

Kaiser, please give me my wife back.

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